I know many of you are not of my faith, and I don't mean to press my beliefs on you. I feel to share some of my thoughts and they can be taken or left at your own pleasure.
I feel with certainty there is no deeper heart ache to me than the ache of one who is lost, when considering all of the possibility before what once was two, or a partnership. I believe there is absolute truth, and divinity, and I also believe in the one who is just the opposite. I believe there is a definite force for good, and a definite and cunning force for sorrow. I believe there is an eternal purpose for each of us that is greater than our comprehension, and that the crowning moments of our lives revolve around choosing our families and our eternal partnership in that union. I believe the greatest empowerment comes from honoring those promises and covenants that we make to that one other, God, and the resulting lives who follow, and I believe the greatest freedom comes from honesty and purity in heart. Everything about the world we live in is driving us away from the sanctity of the role of spouses and this special union between two souls. There is so much good to be had and love to be shared, and trust and honor to be shared between two people, in addition to the power we are given by God to create our own families and the spirit which is in them. There is nothing more tragic than when a family falls apart. Nothing more preventable, and nothing more destructive. Souls heal, and people move forward, but the tragedy remains and the children forever are impacted by those choices. That's a pain and a loss that cannot quite find itself wholly in expression. It's something to be felt and understood spiritually. I believe in our right to choose, and in the right of each person to make their own choices, but I also believe that every choice has a resulting and unavoidable, and one day undeniable, consequence (for which we will be held accountable). My heart couldn't bear this day passing without my honesty, and I only feel to share these really personal beliefs with each of you. I thank you for your respect and your love and support.
I also wanted to say, I do know this is a beautiful opportunity to begin again and to really understand the gift of the atonement. But, I feel I wouldn't be true to myself if I didn't own how tragic this feels to me, and how differently I will see the world because of this day. I'm free to choose, and I choose happiness. But I have to work through and understand pain to reach joy. Please, if you have a moment and you feel to, send up prayers for my family on this day. All of us, including Ryan. Thank you.
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